Desperately Wanting

I wish i had sum1 who i desperately wanting...
it's been quite sum times i din feel a thing for any1...
n tis makes me want sumthing, want to feel sumthing, want 2 nid sumthg, want 2 belong to sumbody...
but i guess tis feelin will soon fade away again.. when i gettin better from the rumour thingy... *shrug*
i feel bad, so bad, so so so so so aweful...
got myself sum piercing, a hair cut but tat aint enuf...
i nid sumthng stronger, sumthg more intense to fill me up..
i noe tat aint lurve , mayb just lust...
but as long as it can fill me up..
den it's okay..
it's enuf...

screw the happy ever after...

i noe tis is stupid...
but if the rumours r true den damn the whole true luv thingy...
i won gv a fuck to luv anymore...

mayb it's dumb to feel so awfully down due to sum fangirl thingy..
but it's really hurt... it's ∞ times worst than my own heartbreak...
they really broke my heart... so damn painful jus like wat it's like the last time as if my heart jump off from the 101 and scattered infront of me...
shit...
where is my happy ever after...?
where is eternity?
where is faith and truth...
where is true luv...
is there any left...？
is there any left ?

feel so stupid and juz staring on the wallpaper makes me breaks all over again...
i wanted to blif the smiles, the longing in those eyes,the luv...
damn it...
i wanted to blif there's true luv..
pls.... pls....prove it it's juz rumour...
no third wheel and juz the two of you...
it's juz the 2 of you..

*tears*